Hey it's been a while now
I have these things that need to get off my chest
It's irritating and it gets worse day by day
And someone has to speak up
Unfortunately, I am a pussy
So here I am writing this shit
Knowing damn well you won't read it

I know something is really wrong with you
Okay, let's just talk about you. You need help. SERIOUSLY.
I don't know how to help you because when
I try to tell you something that might offend you
You just couldn't take it

I know life been hard on you since forever and we as human
Have to find a way and accept everything that happened
Is Allah's test how strong you are. I know you are more than that.
You are the strongest person I have known my entire life
And I always looked up to

Penyakit kau dah kronik sangat.
Seeing you getting angrier each day scares the hell out of me
It makes me feel like I am the reason for all of this shit
Did I do something that made you who you are today?
Why you treat me like I am a piece of shit but not to your friends?
Is it because we are family? Which mean we can still be cool right after that?
You know what
Communication has failed us
Actually, WE. FAILED. OURSELVES.
How am I going to have a talk with you when all you did
Was firing my words back at me?
I can't stand all the backlash that I'm getting from you
Just because you don't want to listen

You see, it doesn't work like that
Is it because you think I am younger than you?
That I cannot share my opinion with you?
I actually care for you. I really do. But do you?
Life is too short to not show how much you love a person
It is now or never. Yes, it's a reminder for myself too

You are getting older. Me too
But what's the point of living if you only care about your
Relationship with the Almighty but not with others?
Both parties have to be well taken care of in order to achieve
Or maintain the well-being of our souls

Every people have their own struggles and obstacles in life
It's how to find a way and deal with it is more important
Please find initiative for your anger issue
You really do not want to be like all the ugli makcik bawang in the future
Please control your anger it is really not good for the soul
Semoga Allah lembutkan hati kau dan mudahkan urusan kau
Di atas muka bumi Allah ni amin ya rabbillalamin

You ain't living man. There is something that holdng you back of being happy
You need to let it go. Be happy. Find your true happiness.
Allah tidak begitu kejam dengan umatnya.

Xoxo,
Your stubborn sister











Do you ever feel like you're the only one living in this lonely world ?
Feeling left out in everything but you enjoyed it ?
Those hopeless, restless feelings keep you awake at night ?
Wanted to reach out but no one seemed to care?
Or everyone presence just annoyed you ?

The worst part is
You always feel like cutting or harm yourself
The unceasing loop of you jumping off a building
Being told to do shit you don't even like
Confuse of what kind of life you're living

I'm not living my life to the fullest
I don't like it here it's irritating
Every smallest thing get to me
I just enjoy my own companion
Please leave me the fuck alone

I'm in my twenties and still accomplished nothing
All my friends are doing great in their life
I don't get jealous, bcs I know my time will come
I'm happy for them, bcs that's what a good friend should do

People around me thought life is a competition
And always find a way to get ahead of me
The truth is it's not
I don't really give a single fuck about you
Especially when you're nothing to me

When someone is settling down
Having a good job
Have enough money to get married
Just let them be
Because your time will come

We all grow at different rates
And that is completely okay
Work harder honey
Allah knows you're trying
Everything gonna be just fine









Have you felt lonely lately?
Feelin like you don't belong to a certain place.
Like you cannot fit in the group of people that are enjoying stupid jokes
that are made from nerd girl (well actually people laugh bcs of her stupidity lol)
Never going to be good enough for everybody, satisfy everyone's needs.
Always want to look good in everyone's eyes, to get all the credit
Don't you feel tired? So they like you but do you like you?

I used to have a lot of friends, a lot of them.
We used to hang out and chill together, eat together, sleep together.
My heart is so stunk and dark that my friends can smell it and then left me
hanging. It's so dark. Pitch black. Also rotten. If look closely it doesn't look
like a heart, At all.

Empty, there is nothing there.

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